chapters 1 and 2 underground man

The underground man seems like such a depressing person. He has a lot of doubt in himself and the first thing he says in chapter two is that he wishes to become an insect but that he's not even good enough for that. The underground man believes that he is worthless and can do nothing to improve the way he is. He lives in Petersburg and feels that everyone who lives there is very unlucky and that it's the worst place in the world to live. The underground man seems to feel that everything in his life doesn't go his way. For some reason he believes that consciousness is a disease and that it's better to not have it at all. He also seems to go against his beliefs a lot. During the part where he talked about his liver disease he said that he wouldn't go to the doctors and that he was superstitious; but for some reason, he still greatly supports the use doctors and medicines. He did later say that people pride themselves on diseases and that he most certainly did so maybe that’s the reason that he won’t get his liver disease fixed. Maybe it’s this liver disease that he feels makes him have some kind of meaning and allows him to gain some acknowledgement from those around him. He did previously talk about how he was in the government and that he used to be rude to everyone around him for his own self-amusement. Maybe he doesn’t care about what others think at all. He’s such an odd complex man that it’s hard to tell what kind of person he really is.